Bear with me today.....
As today is the day I need to sit with my heart,
With empathy, compassion, and self-love.
How do you express a grief that consumes you to the levels of soul that you did not even know that existed prior to today!
God, give me strength today.
As I fear,
I feel a pain so deep,
That sucks my soul to depths of darkness.
That I may utter a painful "why did you do this to me!" in desperation.
And I fear,
The universe may hear it,
And karma will hear it,
And it may hurt him.
I do want nothing but happiness for him.
But I am afraid.
Today, I am afraid of the loss and grief I feel.
So help me God.
Help me get it contained inside me.
Help me hold my pain to myself.
Keep me strong.